different beautiful -- comment of the week 10.12.03

"A friend recently said that the reason most people are boring is because they aren't bold. This statement hit me in the chest and has stayed there like a brilliant hot stone. It was a wake up call. Lately I've been feeling like my life is nothing but routine and this has caused my depression to rise up again and in return I have stopped looking in the mirror. I feel boring. I feel average. I feel like nothing.

But I realized, feeling the bright glow suddenly lit in my heart, that the only reason for this is because I've stopped living my life. I let the routine lead me. Who says that even if you have to follow a daily schedule you can't do it boldly? That you can't do it your own way? I can still do everything I usually do, but I shall dance it, not walk it. I will not let my life be dull and boring. I will wear bright colors and feel beautiful and I will live boldly.

"Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." - Harvey Fierstein."

~ Nikki